i thought i would make a quick little post cuz all my posts seem to be so moody and stuff and i know that can get boring. so i will do a quick up beat little post for all of 1 of you to enjoy.

todays topic will be....things i wanna do b4 i die. i know this is a list that a lot of people do especially after people saw that one movie...a walk to remember? i think where she made a list of things to do and the most popular being "to fall in love" or sumthing like that so heres my list in no particular order

race around a race track in a car
race around a race track on a bike
ride a motorcycle
own a motorcycle
go skydiving
go to china,korea,japan, austalia, england, isle of man, anywhere in europe lol
get pulled over by a cop (weird eh? i just wanna know wut its like and how i would react haha)
get married
have kids
own my own house
learn how to cook
go to the city and navigate with no help (buses, subways, street...that stuff)
build a car
get a job
grow 4 inches (like that will ever happen)
go bunjie jumping
buy that perfect suit
ask a girl on a date or have a girl ask me on a date lol
go on a date
graduate from college
heal sumone, comfort sumone, protect sumone
get a 6 pack haha
see the christmas tree in the city (u know that hugeee one everyone talks about)
go ice skating in the city (that famous one i dunno wut its called)
lead worship on a sunday
go on a road trip
go skiing down a mountain
mow my own lawn
get my first pay check
put a ring on a special sumone
go to australia and go to the hillsongs home church
go to a relient k conert
go clubbing
dance lol
i dont know what else rite now but i think that list is lengthy enough for now

cheers,

-pol

wuts up? got back to kevins house from an awesome day. first we watched hancock which was alrite but "wanted" was still better. then we went to korean bbq. me, kevin, freddy, florence, and leigh anne. we went to a korean bbq buffet in flushing and its soo good. i love how you cook everything yourself at your table and its such an involved process to eat, you put it on the grill, turn it over, take it off b4 it gets burnt then eat it. usually korean bbq would cost 20$+ just for a couple strips, but here its a buffet and its good. i hope the others thought it was good also, some sed it was good or it was alrite, but i dont know if they were just saying that to make me feel better becuz it was my idea to go there. hopefully everyone had fun there. oh and i finally got to try soju. and its good! they say that i was drunk but i deny it, i was just really tipsy and all but i definately enjoyed myself today. i was disappointed that we didnt get to make it in time for fireworks tho becuz of the dam traffic...there wasnt even an accident or anything causing the traffic...we think it was just people driving too slow becuz they wanted to see the fireworks while they were driving..wut a bunch of noobs. i feel really bad tho that we didnt get to see them because sumone was really looking forward to it and decided to come...so im realllyyy sorry i dunno wut else to say besides im uber sorry about that. we also went to red mango, ive never been there b4 and wanted to try what it was. also ive never had yogurt b4 either. it was a bit sour-e but it was still good and out of all my toppings i liked the strawberry the best.

so onto a different topic...im old..so old that i mite even get married in the next 4 years. and no im not drunk while writting this lol. how crazie is that. not that i have a girlfriend but getting married by 25 seemed like the optimal age to get married. problem is finding a girl. all the gurls i like dont like me back, apart from my ex. other than that no one ever has that i know of. even the girl i like right now im pretty sure she doesnt like me back. i keep telling myself "wutever i dont care anymore, theres no point in liking if none of them will ever like u back". hah i tell myself that but i keep liking. now theres one thing thats troubling me, how do i know when its ok to ask a girl out? or if its appropriate...dont know how to spell...i wonder because ive never done it b4 lol, ive never asked a girl out or even been on a date actually. if i ask the gurl out, will the frendship be broken? or will it be alrite and just pass by, or will it actually happen and she'll give me a chance. i highly doubt the latter but who knows. sure i like someone rite now and im being as careful as i can becuz i dont wanna screw things up like i always do, ive never been so cautious (i think thats how u spell it) or so scared, but ive also never been such good frends with sumone i liked. so which is it? or i risk it or not? or if i wait to long maybe my oppertunity will be gone. im just afraid and ill accept that...i know im afraid, but can i overcome that fear? who knows...

I Love You

You have been there for me and with me for this long and i hope it will be for many many many years to come. i cant tell you how much i love you. we've been through the tough times, the rains and storms through our relationship but still we push on, you protecting me every step of the way. you protect me while i protect you. we always do it together, we cany move by ourselves, we need one another to get to the next destination. as we go down the road together, im glad your in my life, without you i wouldnt have one, without you life would be bored as hell for sure. though you have been through some rough patches im still there for you, even when you had your 7 hour surgery i stayed in the waiting room for you to come out and come back to me. i smile everyday i see you thinking to myself how lucky i am to have you. i wouldnt trade anything in the world for you. though sumtimes i may treat you badly, you still stay with me and hold on making sure i stay on the right path. as our live roll on, we get older together...and i will always keep you healthy and good to go. although some people may look at us together and give weird faces or saying i could do better, i will never be ashamed of being with you. if something ever happend to you i would be devastated, there will never be a replacement for you. that saying from the movie "Bad Boys"..."we ride together, we die together, bad boys for life" i think it applies to us, apart from the bad boys for life part of course lol ill always watch over you and take care of you, make sure your in good health, keep you entertained, and never let you go. you are my everything and i love you so much and im glad you can be mine.

-pol

whoa a blogger thing for google

WoW i didnt notice that google had its own blogger thingy till now. google has everything...i just noticed because of those links at the top of my gmail haha. i didnt know there was a calender either. sweeeet

anyway so i guess ill write about something even tho no one probobly knows about this blog of mine. i noticed something a while back and was reminded of it today. i found out that the smallest things can make me happy or smile or laugh. i guess its because of my simple mindedness or my child like mind. i really do think im still a kid. i may be 20 years old but i still feel like im 13 or 14 when it comes to my personallity or sumthing like that. ill give you an example of what im talking about. i would laugh at anything so simple to myself by myself like if i pronounced sumthing aloud wrong and stupidly i would start laughing at myself or if i see something happen thats an inside joke but im still by myself i would start laughing. or....ok this should only be kept to myself but im sure other people do it too, but like after watching americas best dance crew i would try to do a dance move or sumthing wen no one is around and omg i feel so stupid and start laughing at myself out loud. oh and who can forget seeing ricers drive by...now that cracks me up lol sumthings that make me smile easily is a little baby looking at me (probobly because he thinks im the same size as him) or wen i see a doggy =] or wen sumone IM's me just because they feel like it and talk. or ralphs or i remember sumthing that happened way back wen that was funny. one of the simplest things that would make me happy and make my day is seeing a really nice car pass by or drive with. for example, today i saw a BMW M5 drive past me and i got so excited and made me happy and made my day. then later today i passed by another MINI Cooper S and waved to say hi then we started to drive together like follow the leader. i think its the smallest things in life that we usually overlook and ignore when in reality it could make us smile and brighten up our day. I only started to realize this and start to make fun of myself and laugh at myself out loud after i started to make vlogs. after that i just "changed" and maybe made me more comfortable with myself. dont overlook these small scenes in life, it could change your day with one small event. even if it didnt happen to you, maybe you saw something that happened to someone else or a group of people that made you smile, enjoy life, even the small moments that seem hidden by big problems and bigger events.

i also smile when i know that what i do whether its making a vlog, writing a blog, making a video, or anything, that sumone actually took the time to read it and i appreciate it alot. even more wen they comment =P but hey i guess im already happy that i could spend time with myself writing about some things on my mind the i normally dont do.

Cheers,

-Pol

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